But again, I'm back only to bitch *sigh*

I despise relationships right now. I keep getting so close to either being happy with it or ending it but then I clam up, being the coward I am. Blargh. Too much to sort out to make a decision, not enough guts to go through with anything I think of. Ugh. Having to chase someone you love all the time just to get a fucking hug or to hang out is not fun, let me tell you all. ESPECIALLY when you're already together and junk, really boosts the self esteem let me tell you.

Ok I'm done

~Caroline

It's really coming too fast, seriously. I can't believe it's only four days until I'm a senior, bleh I'm not tall enough to be a senior people!!! Oh well, not doing too many courses, finishing up math 20p, math 30p, english 30-1, social 30, religion 35 (hopefully online) and music like mad of course, it should be pretty good I hope. Wish me luck guys, let's see if I freak out :P

Jeez someone do grade 12 for me? huh??? please??? Oh that would be awesome, even better if I weren't stressed out and angry at some people, but oh well really. It'll come and go fast enough I s'pose.

Dammit we prepared for the Whistler music trip for months, and what happens? I keep puking the morning of the trip and I can't go... ahh I was trying to go with a really bad throat anyways (they think it's strepth, but haven't gotten the test results back yet) and FUCK. I miss everyone so damn much, my parents and I are trying really hard to get me there somehow, but oh my god I miss everyone. I'm so very upset right now, I've been making myself sick I've been pushing myself through rehearsals so much, and this is the end result. BAH. Well I'm just sitting by the phone and on MSN all the time hoping someone I can talk to comes online to distract myself, until then? Video games it is.

~back to the labyrinth for me

Bleh I'm pissed off....... it's all this friend stuff going on. Someone I think is a close friend either turns out avoiding me, being super uber completely passive agressive, annoying me, or just dumping all their problems on me and expecting me to fucking love 'em. Oy. Something I want to get super clear to eeeverybody: Yes I am dating, yes I am happy, if you want to act like a bitch 5 times a week because of this, then go fuck yourself, you aren't worth my time. Mmkay? Bah another angry rant, loverly XD. Just what my little page needs, joyful. Well at least I've been doing some things over spring break, some time with some buddies, hanging out with Blair, it all works. So long as I stick to the right people, it'll all be fine XP. Though oh cripes I'm not looking forward to Whistler anymore......

Less drawing and daydreaming (I'm terrible for that XD), more work.... and less fun stuff... but oh I love my own little world! ^^ But yesh, I have a terrible escape complex of sorts, if you hadn't noticed hee hee, which if you haven't, then I'd be impressed because you're asleep all ze timeee. I would love to finally finish a drawing sometime though, I have pictures from more then a year ago I never finished *shrugs* oh well, tomorrow....?

Terrible day >< getting yelled at, a few breakdowns, the usual. Damn I am so tired of having to tell people 2 years older than me to grow the hell up, I mean come ON! *rages* Prancing around being loud and obnoxious is only going to promote you being yelled at, so when it happens you damn well better not go call me a bitch or cry about it. Beh I hate people, I really do. People avoiding me has been fun to oy, as well as some of those who haven't just whining all the time about nothing. If you have a legitimate problem, please share, I really do want to help, but if its meaningless bitching all day yes, I want to hit you. BAH!

    Well, got no work done this week XDD but! redemption! it wasn't a very terrible week yayness ^^ tons of music stuff done like I hoped, the downside is I'm now sick lol oh well. Trying to keep friends happy finally made me tired and let some little bugger germs in..... plus Blair was sick first and it took it long enough to get to me, so I should be happy XD. Wellllll not too much interesting to say, except that amazing things for when you're sick: KIDS MOVIES!!!! Watched Hook last night with Blair (one of my favorite movies) and now: 101 DALMATIONS IS ON!!! Not the cartoon series though... I miss that... I watch too many cartoons though :P. AND 300 WAS AMAZING! I came out of it fangirling XD really fun thing to do: be all girly high pitched fangirling over one of the gorey-ist movies you've ever seen haha I'm such a boy/girl/thing ^^
    I've concluded from strange conversations that I am actually a boy AND a girl, they just switch which is in front.... it makes sense to me XDD

~Now back to the labyrinth for me folks

once again, another "hey I'm back!" message! Just the way things work with me, I s'pose this time I'll have to stay or Kit shall rip me a new one (which "one" is really up to her *becomes scared*) anyhoooo, still just me guys ^^

I decided to get my lj going again, but my old account was too emo lol
sooooo, here's the new one
let's see if I use it at all, I will probably put random things and my rants in here
fun fun

~Caro